My Little Brown Dog

As children we never understood the hidden meanings of objects, we only saw things for what they were, literally.  As time has gone on and years become shorter I now realize that my life can be summed up in my scruffy brown dog.  He comforted me on my sick days and played with me when I was lonely, but now when I look at him I see days gone by.  I feel a sense of emptiness where my love once was.  I see him sitting on my bed, pleading, begging me for one last play, as my high school career comes to a close.  I want to.  I really do.  But, I am no longer 6.  I am 16.  My life is consumed by endless nights staying up until three trying to finish homework.  I miss the days where I would go to bed at 8 and wake up with energy.  I see, in my little brown dog, the happy days that I need to hold onto in my life.  I think that is why I leave him, sitting there watching me with those big brown eyes, as if he understands what I am going through.  Growing up has given me some of the best memories anyone could ask for.  Growing up given me friends and an appreciation for everything that has happened to me.  I believe that is why I can't remain six forever.  When I was six, I didn't have an appreciation for what I had, but now I do.  Growing up makes me realize how lucky I was to have a beautiful childhood.  I will forever cherish those memories as I look towards the future.  I may have to struggle to finish all of my school work at night, but I am happy.  I can't finish this blog; because, I am not done growing.  I shouldn't look at the past as if it was my glory days, because it wasn't.  I am still a child.  I believe the past that I am reminiscing about is still happening.  It is my present.  So, I can't say that I have learned very much.  I have just learned to appreciate every moment of my life and to not fear the future or try to speed it up.  I'm going to love every moment and not dwell on the past.  I can't wait to see what the future has in store for me.

Shoes

At the start of Freshmen year I picked up my first pair of running shoes and joined the cross country team.  I was slow at first and got better and better as everyday went on.  I never compared myself with the other runners, I always looked at my personal achievements and I was always proud, no matter how small they were. This is how I grew as not only a runner, but also an individual.  With the right mindset I knew my shoes would make me stronger.  Eventually I was getting faster and faster and after two years of hard work and dedication I finally got to where I wanted to be.  I was so happy.  I felt like nothing could bring me down.  I was on the top of the world.  Then injury struck.  I was devastated.  Betrayed.  I lost all hope and motivation and got slower and slower.  I thought of myself as worthless and I considered giving up on running forever.  Then I remembered my belief from freshmen year, "As long as I have have the right mindset, my shoes will make me stronger."  I then became more motivated and as I am writing this I am thinking about how great I can become.  I may still be injured, but I am getting better.  I need to remember to stay motivated, because my shoes will never let me down.  They can't.  My shoes have become part of my being and I can't even begin to thank them for what they have done for me.  My blue shoes carry me through the long painful days and remind me that I can go farther where as my orange shoes carry me through the fast races.  They help me forget about the pain and they just let me feel free.  They changed my life by leading me in the right direction towards a healthy lifestyle.  I'm no longer the short chubby eighth grader that I once was.  I am now content and I look forward to the possibilities my shoes bring me.  Even though we won't be together forever, because you will have given me everything that I could possibly imagine.  For giving me the chance to fly, I thank you.

Happy

Depth is something that defines a person and makes them interesting, fantastic even!  However, I do not possess this quality.  I am an open book and I have the same interests as everyone else.  Whenever I have to say something about myself I say "My favorite color is blue" or "I like dogs" just like almost every person on this planet.  Therefore, this blog won't be deep; I'm not going to make myself appear to be some amazingly talented person on the Internet.  All that said, I am happy.  Happiness is my favorite quality in a person, it shows that they can come out of even the hardest moments smiling and I find that admirable.  I am one of those people.  My sole purpose in life is to make myself and others happy.  When I die, I want to know that I made someone's life better.  So, I will use this blog to make people happy; it won't be some BS inspirational quotes that anyone can get from an app off the iTunes store.  I want to touch people's lives...